Today was great except for some parts. Met Darling for a few times. For the very first time I went to his lecture. It was really great cause I got the chance to sit beside him. &Then today we took bus home together. :D I wanna meet him everyday. I was like thinking it would be really good if everyday is just like today. It's wonderful okay. Then I think I will love to go school every much also cause I can see Darling everyday in school. Life's great with him yo! :D I wanna marry him! I wanna be his legal wife. I wanna be Mrs Keith Tan. 177 days together. 7 more days to 184days. Our 6th month anniversary. We will celebrate our 6th year anniversay together, and 60th year anniversay and lots lots more to go. For a lifetime. I'm so gonna like a superglue stick to him forever.Y

Got home around 4pm plus and then was doing some personal works. Till about 6 Plus then I went back to school for the birthday celebration. Well, Melinda and I were attacked by the cake. Mine was only a little bit on the face, Melinda was like much worse than me. Poor Melinda. Anyways, after the celebrate some of us went to opposite school to have dinner. But Melinda didn't join us so I was sitting with Jolene and SL. Berlinda joined us also. And then we got our water babies :D I've got pink and purple. Pink represents me and purple represents Darling. Jolene said waterbaby is so fun and yah. I don't know how to grow it. Hahas. I'm like so gonna show them to Darling and Melinda tomorrow. :D

Recently, things didn't go on smoothly, there're two friends of mine are really sad. And today even Jolene, she's sad. No more sunshine smile on her face. I understand how she feels, I couldn't help her but I really don't wish to see her in that way. She's like everybody's happy pill. So Jolene cheer up alright. Siao Char Bor smile!

And also there's another friend of mine. If you are reading this. You have to cheer yourself up. And don't blame everything on yourself. It wasn't totally all your fault. Though everything seems getting bad but you must believe everything's gonna be better soon. I will always stand by you!

&Damn the whoever took the shoes. ):

I'm like still a bit confused now. There's time I don't know what's going on with my life or even with who sometimes. It's weird that I realised I've actually hate people who were used to be my friends. I don't feel like talk to them cause they're just so fake to me. But at the same time I'm afriad. I'm afraid that I might loss important thing. I don't know what am I thinking. So nevermind.

There are people who's reading this blog, maybe everyday. And recently some came and asked me questions randomly like 'How the two of you can be so sweet?...' 'How can you two get this far?...' 'Teach me, how to be so sweet can?...' I actually don't have any answers. Cause that's our love and that's my happiness. Look at us now. We've made it. I'm blessed cause I've got the great man. People think that I'm crazy cause I'm treating my boy like a superstar and like forever in a honeymoon mood. But no matter what, please don't steal my happiness away. He's my propety! Y

Didn't blog what I was supposed to blog today. Really tired. Maybe on Thurday. I don't know. I need time for that entry. Well, except for our 6th month anniversay the next coming big event to me will be Melinda's birthday. I will plan something for my lovergirl :D

Alrights. Darling's doing his work now. And I... don't know what I should do. Oh yah. School starts at 12 for me. Ta. (:

-
Now we see our love has grown
And these have been the sweetest times
That I have ever known
And I know that it will never end,
'Cause every time I look at you,
I fall in love again

Yeat your heart out
1:59 AM

Alrights people. Today my mood is happy. Happy okay! Isn't that great. I mean at least for me. I met darling today. Like woohoos~ :D Anyways, won't be blogging much cos I'm tired now. Actually I've got something to say but yah. Tomorrow okay. Today was good though everything didn't go according to the plan. But still, it was good to me. (: Keithdarling is love! Y

Supposed to meet Serena and all but didn't turn up and only met Jia Bao for like a few minutes. So it's like yah. Didn't meet the people that I supposed to meet instead I met others randomly. Hahahahas. But it was really great that I had Korn! I think Korn's so so sweet pretty and nice girl. Shop with her is just so so very fun! I got the same taste. Hahahas. :D

But yah. Today I ate two meals. That's scary okay. Like OMG. I don't wanna go fat. Hahas. And I've changed my phone to N95. Can say for free lah.

Okays. More pictures are in Korn's camera. And the neoprints. I'll try to get the neos and the rest of the pictures ready by tomorrow. But I'm gonna blog something else tomorrow. So no promise alright.(: And yah. For the motherfucker who took the shoes you are so gonna get cursed. Bloody asshole. Shit you!

I'm meeting Darling tomorrow during the break time. Lalalalas. Sweet dreams (:

I LOVE KEITH DARLING! :D

Yeat your heart out
12:38 AM

I love this picture so very much. Cos Darling is just sooper sooper naturally cute. The world's cutest boy alive. I love him! &This love is just beyond the words. Y

You melt my beating heart as I behold your love through me. How lovely each day is because you're here with me. I would climb the highest mountains, I would swim the deepest seas. My love will never faulter, and my love is stronger than the trees.

You fill my cup with happiness and you opened my heart and showed me all you can. You gave me reason to smile, you gave me reason to hope. As long as you are by my side I can never ask for more. And if I have one thing to thank right now, then that's when you came into my life!

IYyoudearestKEITHdarling!

-
You know you will always be the only one for me

Yeat your heart out
9:26 PM

Such a long day. School ended at bloody 7pm. I'm just so tired. This is only the first week of school, still have lots more days to go. God, I don't know how long I can tahan. Had DCNK lecture early in the morning and then went to meet Melinda and all as usual. I like Mel&Ray's picture that I took today. Sooper cute couple lah. (:

Saw Darling at canteen during the second break time so I was sitting beside him till he finished his meal. I like to see the way he's eating. And he wore this green prince shirt today. Just amazingly handsome to me. &He said he's meeting me tomorrow. You know I was just so happy when I heard that.

Then I went to Business School for my U-Art lesson. Was unluckily enough to see LTL when I first stepped into the classroom. I was almost going to sms Miao Xin about it. But like... Heng! She isn't in the same class as me. Well, my new classmates for U-Art are all from Business School and mainly from Mass Comm, I heard that mostly are the year 2s. So yah. I'm the only one who's from IT school. This class is pretty interesting, Now I seriously think Business School has lots of talented people. You know the way they talk and the way they carry themselves with more confidence and poise, which is really a bit different from IT school people. Well, our teacher told us that U-Art is very hard to score as we have to do a lot of weird stuffs. Like a pretty bad news for me. But well, I ain't gonna change again cos I think I like this class and Art is still interesting to me. Well, I was sitting beside Sheena, she's a nice girl and she can cook(:. We did some drawings today, something that could represent ourselves. So I drew this Mr.Bobo. Lols. And we all had to present our works and ideas one bye one. I was just childish enough to draw this. Hahas. And yah. Apple, she drew a big apple today. Hahas.

Had another CDS today which is French. It's hard to learn but I enjoyed the lecture like very much. Cos We got this super sexy and hot teacher Mr. Jerome. As what I told Jie Min and all, he's just buring hot. Even the guys behind us think the same way as me. Lols. Eunice and I were like a bit crazy over him and I took this picture below and sent to Eunice. Mad women. Hahas. But you know what, he will be teaching my tutorial. Woohoos. And I told them I'm so gonna take photo with him tomorrow. Gagagagagas. I think he's just like Mr. Sim. Remember last time most of the BPS girls love Mr.K Sim. But I think Jerome is hotter. Hahas:D

Okay. There was this part of lecture was super funny, as we had to identify the genders. The Masculine(male) and the Feminine(female). He took a microphone and asked us if that is a Masculine(male). We answered yes. And then he said this 'Yes, the mic is the Masculine(male) but not because of the shape okay...'. Lols. You got it? Hahahas.

-
Now that we're here
Now that we've come this far
Just hold on
There is nothing to fear
For I am right beside you
For all my life
I am yours

Yeat your heart out
9:12 PM

I'm having fever since this morning. But strangely, nobody has noticed that. Anyways, the temperature goes up I think. Now it's like 38.2. And nosebleed as well. Should have drink more water. Tomorrow I'm so gonna have a long day. But I won't give school a miss.

Got home and practiced Cmaths. And then I played the piano. I've finally know how to play the song 'Qin Ai De'. This song is just... Well, I don't know to say. So, nevermind. (:

I'm like seeing Melinda almost everyday during the break time. I think this would probably be the only thing that would make me happy in school. I feel so comfortable with her. But I'm afraid that Raymond might hate me. Hahahas. Sweet little couple. (: I'm thinking of following ITO for some lectures actually, or maybe even FBI. It's just too bad that MWC doesn't have such girlfriends.

The weather is still depressing today. And somehow I'm feeling the same way too. Vanessa called me. She seems doing quite well over there. She supposed to give me a call yesterday but she was just forgot about it, totally. She has new friends and everything's fresh to her. Well, I feel happy for her.(:

There was this time I was hugging Melinda and suddenly I felt like crying so I've started to bite my nails, I don't know why I did that but for me it's just a way to keep myself strong, to hold back the tears. Lalalalalas` I'm stronger now so smile yo! (:

I was like keep telling that friend to cheer up and be strong. I'm glad that this friend of mine has the smile back so I think everything's gonna be alright.(:

Though I'm like a bit confused now but I choose to only see the beautiful side. Cos I love sunshine not the black clouds. And everything's still gonna be perfect. Just keep your eyes off the ugly side. And never try to dig everything out. I'm still the little miss happy. *peace(:

Friday school ends early so I might be going town shopping with myself. Then maybe I will give myself a movie treat as well. Or maybe on Saturday, or maybe even both days, cos I'm way too free at weekends. Hahas. And you know, I have 35 pairs of shoes in totally. Like OMG. Hahahas. But I'm getting the 36th and 37th pairs really soon. Ohh, this year's O is getting harder. So good luck Serene! (:

Yeat your heart out
8:07 PM

Right now I'm feeling like a fool, a bloody fool. Don't know why I'm feeling this way. Told you I'm weird. So yah, forget it. I hate Friendster and I think Friendster sucks the big time. It makes me feel sad. Nope, I'm not sad, just not very happy. I've been thinking of deleting the account sooper long time ago. But yah, till now I haven't delete it. Okay, whatever shit it is. Don't wanna talk about it already. Lalalalas~

Now I'm taking U-Art as one of my CDSes. My timetable's getting even more worse. I have two days end at 7pm. It's like bloody hell okay. But on the happier note, Friday school ends much eariler for me, it's about 1pm. So I might be able to meet Darling. God, I want to!

Well, school's alright today. Just got to know this friend of mine isn't happy recently. Due to some reason. I can't tell who's this person. I don't like to see this friend been so depressing. I wanna help, but I don't know how. Cos I understand this kind of feeling is like hell. Like the emo bug attacks.

Love kills. But life's moving on. I know I would be even more sad &emo if I'm in this situation. But well, just stand up and be strong. Time will have a way to heal the wound. (:

Erm, people, what if there's a thousand sad thoughts racing through your mind? Tell me, what would you do!

Hmmm, kind of a confusing feeling. I'm like I have secrets, but are they really secrets? Ohmymama. I'm a weird ass. I wanna watch the moive Brothers. It sounds cool. &I think Superbad isn't that nice, it's all about drawing the dicks. Darling thinks the same way too. Okay, that's random.

I want a pink rose. So I'm getting one for myself tomorrow. Lols. Nightlalalas people.

-
Some people search their whole lives
Never find what I found in your eyes

Yeat your heart out
11:27 PM

Sweet holidays are over. Today was the first day of school. I was like dragging myself to school this morning. Met Melinda and Jolene before lesson started. I don't know why, but they were somehow brought the smile on my face. &I'm like going out with Melinda very soon.

Nothing much to say about today's lessons. Cos we only had DCNK and OOPG. And they were just briefing on the subjects only. Class is getting even more boring. Cos some friends have been transferred to other classes. We won't be seeing then that often anymore.

I feel lonely somehow. Everybody becomes a loner in different ways. I dislike break times now, like so very much. I'd prefer I'm having continuous lessons all the way till school ends. Cos whenever I was having break I did feel a little bit lonely somehow.

It seems that I'm getting to know more friends maybe through IITSC. But I feel weird cos I had to wave hi or bye to many people. They're nice people, definitely. But somehow I seem to have more hi-bye-friends. It's okay if you don't get what I mean. This kind of feeling is just unreal. Really. I don't know if you could understand me. Okay, its like Maybe surrounded by a million people I still feel all alone. Yes, this is how exactly I'm feeling now.

And most importantly, during break time I couldn't even see Darling at all. ): How sad could it be? God, that's my school life.

After Add/Drop the CDSes I went to meet Darling and Darling had his BTT at evening time. He's the greatest I tell you, he passed! I knew he would. (: I'm like thinking this, one day he will drive me to school. Hahahas.(: You know it's like, whenever I'm thinking of him would make me smile, kind of the smile is from the bottom of the heart. Y

It's muttons' time. Muttons at midnight is wonderful okay! I'm listening to it almost every night. It would make me laugh my ass off. I love Muttons. But I want it back to the morning session. Hahas.

Well, it's raining now, such a depressing weather uh. Hmmm, but I love raining days. Sweet dreams you sexy people! (:

Yeat your heart out
11:38 PM

-
You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

Yeat your heart out
10:16 PM

Maybe I will have the wings. Nobody knows. Now that I am weak. But I'm gonna be strong. I have no choice. Cos I have to face the world. Face everything on my own. Even though I will never be strong inside but I'm gonna pretend again. I see the both sides of this story. I feel scared. But no matter what, I'm just gonna smile. Somehow it's not now. Maybe till the day all my tears dry. And then I'm gonna stand up and face every storm. As for now, I have this wish. I wanna be pretty. Ta.

I miss him!

Yeat your heart out
11:59 PM

Was thinking of writting a happy entry today, showing people that I'm fine, no worries for me. But sorry, I know I'm getting very irritating to you. But I'm not gonna pretend that I'm okay. Not anymore. Cos I'm not. Thought I was PMS-ing. But now I'm very sure that wasn't the right reason. Though I'm now going through this very natural menstrual cycle. And now... I just feel sad. I'm scared. The tear gland has just broken.

V called just now but what we did on the phone was just crying. I hate she's so far away from me. Was almost screaming to her "Why can't you just stay..." Cos I so don't want you to leave.

I fucking hate my timetable. Its like totally clashed. Everyday ends so late. Not even a break time is same. How am I gonna see him. I feel so horrible. I've lost all interest to go to school. Can't even take a glance at him. I'm really scared. But I know I can't give school a miss. I will just drag myself to school every morning.

Suddenly a lot of things are going through my mind. And now that I'm lost. I have no idea to any future plans ahead.

I know you might feel irritated by me. Sorry, I didn't wish to. But please... Please don't forsake me.

Yeat your heart out
8:27 PM

Yeat your heart out
5:57 PM

[mood : indescribable ]

I don't know what to start with. What I did for the past 20 minutes or more was just staring at this screen, listening to those what you call the emo songs. And yeh, the memories were playing, like a film without sound.

About 10plus she said goodnight and went to sleep. I want to talk to someone tonight but she refused to talk to me. She said this to me 'I don't my dream tonight fill with tears.' Whatever it is. Maybe I'm so gonna talk to myself. Think I'm not gonna sleep.

Nobody's at home now, they went to somewhere just now but I can't remember where's the place cause I didn't even pay attention to what they have said. So I might just talking to the walls.

What I'm afraid of is everybody leaves me, like one after another. But I think I'll probably take the first move before everybody does. I'll leave them first before they leave me. Well, I'm not here emo-ing. No. I don't. Totally. So don't misunderstand me alrights. You know I'm like Miss Little Sunshine or Miss Happy okay. *peace (:

Hmmm, I know I don't really treasure friendships. Cause to me, everything. Boyfriend comes first then follow by friends. That isn't wrong to me, till now and then. Nobody can ever change my point of view. Cause he's somebody that means the world, means everything to me. No one could ever compare with him. I know I don't pay much attention to the friends maybe sometimes I don't even care about them. Though no one's saying a word. Or maybe I don't. Just that I'm thinking way too much. But still, I'm sorry. That's wrong. &I'm gonna change.

Anyways, you can ignore this entry cause I also don't know what I have been writting.(: V's gonna leave in a few hours time. &I'm so gonna miss her. ):

But yah, nights people. (:
-
I think what I want now is a tight hug.

-
It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
'Cause you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings

Yeat your heart out
12:45 AM

[mood : ]

Yeat your heart out
12:36 AM

Today was great except for some parts. Met Darling for a few times. For the very first time I went to his lecture. It was really great cause I got the chance to sit beside him. &Then today we took bus home together. :D I wanna meet him everyday. I was like thinking it would be really good if everyday is just like today. It's wonderful okay. Then I think I will love to go school every much also cause I can see Darling everyday in school. Life's great with him yo! :D I wanna marry him! I wanna be his legal wife. I wanna be Mrs Keith Tan. 177 days together. 7 more days to 184days. Our 6th month anniversary. We will celebrate our 6th year anniversay together, and 60th year anniversay and lots lots more to go. For a lifetime. I'm so gonna like a superglue stick to him forever.Y

Got home around 4pm plus and then was doing some personal works. Till about 6 Plus then I went back to school for the birthday celebration. Well, Melinda and I were attacked by the cake. Mine was only a little bit on the face, Melinda was like much worse than me. Poor Melinda. Anyways, after the celebrate some of us went to opposite school to have dinner. But Melinda didn't join us so I was sitting with Jolene and SL. Berlinda joined us also. And then we got our water babies :D I've got pink and purple. Pink represents me and purple represents Darling. Jolene said waterbaby is so fun and yah. I don't know how to grow it. Hahas. I'm like so gonna show them to Darling and Melinda tomorrow. :D

Recently, things didn't go on smoothly, there're two friends of mine are really sad. And today even Jolene, she's sad. No more sunshine smile on her face. I understand how she feels, I couldn't help her but I really don't wish to see her in that way. She's like everybody's happy pill. So Jolene cheer up alright. Siao Char Bor smile!

And also there's another friend of mine. If you are reading this. You have to cheer yourself up. And don't blame everything on yourself. It wasn't totally all your fault. Though everything seems getting bad but you must believe everything's gonna be better soon. I will always stand by you!

&Damn the whoever took the shoes. ):

I'm like still a bit confused now. There's time I don't know what's going on with my life or even with who sometimes. It's weird that I realised I've actually hate people who were used to be my friends. I don't feel like talk to them cause they're just so fake to me. But at the same time I'm afriad. I'm afraid that I might loss important thing. I don't know what am I thinking. So nevermind.

There are people who's reading this blog, maybe everyday. And recently some came and asked me questions randomly like 'How the two of you can be so sweet?...' 'How can you two get this far?...' 'Teach me, how to be so sweet can?...' I actually don't have any answers. Cause that's our love and that's my happiness. Look at us now. We've made it. I'm blessed cause I've got the great man. People think that I'm crazy cause I'm treating my boy like a superstar and like forever in a honeymoon mood. But no matter what, please don't steal my happiness away. He's my propety! Y

Didn't blog what I was supposed to blog today. Really tired. Maybe on Thurday. I don't know. I need time for that entry. Well, except for our 6th month anniversay the next coming big event to me will be Melinda's birthday. I will plan something for my lovergirl :D

Alrights. Darling's doing his work now. And I... don't know what I should do. Oh yah. School starts at 12 for me. Ta. (:

-
Now we see our love has grown
And these have been the sweetest times
That I have ever known
And I know that it will never end,
'Cause every time I look at you,
I fall in love again

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
1:59 AM

Alrights people. Today my mood is happy. Happy okay! Isn't that great. I mean at least for me. I met darling today. Like woohoos~ :D Anyways, won't be blogging much cos I'm tired now. Actually I've got something to say but yah. Tomorrow okay. Today was good though everything didn't go according to the plan. But still, it was good to me. (: Keithdarling is love! Y

Supposed to meet Serena and all but didn't turn up and only met Jia Bao for like a few minutes. So it's like yah. Didn't meet the people that I supposed to meet instead I met others randomly. Hahahahas. But it was really great that I had Korn! I think Korn's so so sweet pretty and nice girl. Shop with her is just so so very fun! I got the same taste. Hahahas. :D

But yah. Today I ate two meals. That's scary okay. Like OMG. I don't wanna go fat. Hahas. And I've changed my phone to N95. Can say for free lah.

Okays. More pictures are in Korn's camera. And the neoprints. I'll try to get the neos and the rest of the pictures ready by tomorrow. But I'm gonna blog something else tomorrow. So no promise alright.(: And yah. For the motherfucker who took the shoes you are so gonna get cursed. Bloody asshole. Shit you!

I'm meeting Darling tomorrow during the break time. Lalalalas. Sweet dreams (:

I LOVE KEITH DARLING! :D

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
12:38 AM

I love this picture so very much. Cos Darling is just sooper sooper naturally cute. The world's cutest boy alive. I love him! &This love is just beyond the words. Y

You melt my beating heart as I behold your love through me. How lovely each day is because you're here with me. I would climb the highest mountains, I would swim the deepest seas. My love will never faulter, and my love is stronger than the trees.

You fill my cup with happiness and you opened my heart and showed me all you can. You gave me reason to smile, you gave me reason to hope. As long as you are by my side I can never ask for more. And if I have one thing to thank right now, then that's when you came into my life!

IYyoudearestKEITHdarling!

-
You know you will always be the only one for me

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
9:26 PM

Such a long day. School ended at bloody 7pm. I'm just so tired. This is only the first week of school, still have lots more days to go. God, I don't know how long I can tahan. Had DCNK lecture early in the morning and then went to meet Melinda and all as usual. I like Mel&Ray's picture that I took today. Sooper cute couple lah. (:

Saw Darling at canteen during the second break time so I was sitting beside him till he finished his meal. I like to see the way he's eating. And he wore this green prince shirt today. Just amazingly handsome to me. &He said he's meeting me tomorrow. You know I was just so happy when I heard that.

Then I went to Business School for my U-Art lesson. Was unluckily enough to see LTL when I first stepped into the classroom. I was almost going to sms Miao Xin about it. But like... Heng! She isn't in the same class as me. Well, my new classmates for U-Art are all from Business School and mainly from Mass Comm, I heard that mostly are the year 2s. So yah. I'm the only one who's from IT school. This class is pretty interesting, Now I seriously think Business School has lots of talented people. You know the way they talk and the way they carry themselves with more confidence and poise, which is really a bit different from IT school people. Well, our teacher told us that U-Art is very hard to score as we have to do a lot of weird stuffs. Like a pretty bad news for me. But well, I ain't gonna change again cos I think I like this class and Art is still interesting to me. Well, I was sitting beside Sheena, she's a nice girl and she can cook(:. We did some drawings today, something that could represent ourselves. So I drew this Mr.Bobo. Lols. And we all had to present our works and ideas one bye one. I was just childish enough to draw this. Hahas. And yah. Apple, she drew a big apple today. Hahas.

Had another CDS today which is French. It's hard to learn but I enjoyed the lecture like very much. Cos We got this super sexy and hot teacher Mr. Jerome. As what I told Jie Min and all, he's just buring hot. Even the guys behind us think the same way as me. Lols. Eunice and I were like a bit crazy over him and I took this picture below and sent to Eunice. Mad women. Hahas. But you know what, he will be teaching my tutorial. Woohoos. And I told them I'm so gonna take photo with him tomorrow. Gagagagagas. I think he's just like Mr. Sim. Remember last time most of the BPS girls love Mr.K Sim. But I think Jerome is hotter. Hahas:D

Okay. There was this part of lecture was super funny, as we had to identify the genders. The Masculine(male) and the Feminine(female). He took a microphone and asked us if that is a Masculine(male). We answered yes. And then he said this 'Yes, the mic is the Masculine(male) but not because of the shape okay...'. Lols. You got it? Hahahas.

-
Now that we're here
Now that we've come this far
Just hold on
There is nothing to fear
For I am right beside you
For all my life
I am yours

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
9:12 PM

I'm having fever since this morning. But strangely, nobody has noticed that. Anyways, the temperature goes up I think. Now it's like 38.2. And nosebleed as well. Should have drink more water. Tomorrow I'm so gonna have a long day. But I won't give school a miss.

Got home and practiced Cmaths. And then I played the piano. I've finally know how to play the song 'Qin Ai De'. This song is just... Well, I don't know to say. So, nevermind. (:

I'm like seeing Melinda almost everyday during the break time. I think this would probably be the only thing that would make me happy in school. I feel so comfortable with her. But I'm afraid that Raymond might hate me. Hahahas. Sweet little couple. (: I'm thinking of following ITO for some lectures actually, or maybe even FBI. It's just too bad that MWC doesn't have such girlfriends.

The weather is still depressing today. And somehow I'm feeling the same way too. Vanessa called me. She seems doing quite well over there. She supposed to give me a call yesterday but she was just forgot about it, totally. She has new friends and everything's fresh to her. Well, I feel happy for her.(:

There was this time I was hugging Melinda and suddenly I felt like crying so I've started to bite my nails, I don't know why I did that but for me it's just a way to keep myself strong, to hold back the tears. Lalalalalas` I'm stronger now so smile yo! (:

I was like keep telling that friend to cheer up and be strong. I'm glad that this friend of mine has the smile back so I think everything's gonna be alright.(:

Though I'm like a bit confused now but I choose to only see the beautiful side. Cos I love sunshine not the black clouds. And everything's still gonna be perfect. Just keep your eyes off the ugly side. And never try to dig everything out. I'm still the little miss happy. *peace(:

Friday school ends early so I might be going town shopping with myself. Then maybe I will give myself a movie treat as well. Or maybe on Saturday, or maybe even both days, cos I'm way too free at weekends. Hahas. And you know, I have 35 pairs of shoes in totally. Like OMG. Hahahas. But I'm getting the 36th and 37th pairs really soon. Ohh, this year's O is getting harder. So good luck Serene! (:

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
8:07 PM

Right now I'm feeling like a fool, a bloody fool. Don't know why I'm feeling this way. Told you I'm weird. So yah, forget it. I hate Friendster and I think Friendster sucks the big time. It makes me feel sad. Nope, I'm not sad, just not very happy. I've been thinking of deleting the account sooper long time ago. But yah, till now I haven't delete it. Okay, whatever shit it is. Don't wanna talk about it already. Lalalalas~

Now I'm taking U-Art as one of my CDSes. My timetable's getting even more worse. I have two days end at 7pm. It's like bloody hell okay. But on the happier note, Friday school ends much eariler for me, it's about 1pm. So I might be able to meet Darling. God, I want to!

Well, school's alright today. Just got to know this friend of mine isn't happy recently. Due to some reason. I can't tell who's this person. I don't like to see this friend been so depressing. I wanna help, but I don't know how. Cos I understand this kind of feeling is like hell. Like the emo bug attacks.

Love kills. But life's moving on. I know I would be even more sad &emo if I'm in this situation. But well, just stand up and be strong. Time will have a way to heal the wound. (:

Erm, people, what if there's a thousand sad thoughts racing through your mind? Tell me, what would you do!

Hmmm, kind of a confusing feeling. I'm like I have secrets, but are they really secrets? Ohmymama. I'm a weird ass. I wanna watch the moive Brothers. It sounds cool. &I think Superbad isn't that nice, it's all about drawing the dicks. Darling thinks the same way too. Okay, that's random.

I want a pink rose. So I'm getting one for myself tomorrow. Lols. Nightlalalas people.

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Some people search their whole lives
Never find what I found in your eyes

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
11:27 PM

Sweet holidays are over. Today was the first day of school. I was like dragging myself to school this morning. Met Melinda and Jolene before lesson started. I don't know why, but they were somehow brought the smile on my face. &I'm like going out with Melinda very soon.

Nothing much to say about today's lessons. Cos we only had DCNK and OOPG. And they were just briefing on the subjects only. Class is getting even more boring. Cos some friends have been transferred to other classes. We won't be seeing then that often anymore.

I feel lonely somehow. Everybody becomes a loner in different ways. I dislike break times now, like so very much. I'd prefer I'm having continuous lessons all the way till school ends. Cos whenever I was having break I did feel a little bit lonely somehow.

It seems that I'm getting to know more friends maybe through IITSC. But I feel weird cos I had to wave hi or bye to many people. They're nice people, definitely. But somehow I seem to have more hi-bye-friends. It's okay if you don't get what I mean. This kind of feeling is just unreal. Really. I don't know if you could understand me. Okay, its like Maybe surrounded by a million people I still feel all alone. Yes, this is how exactly I'm feeling now.

And most importantly, during break time I couldn't even see Darling at all. ): How sad could it be? God, that's my school life.

After Add/Drop the CDSes I went to meet Darling and Darling had his BTT at evening time. He's the greatest I tell you, he passed! I knew he would. (: I'm like thinking this, one day he will drive me to school. Hahahas.(: You know it's like, whenever I'm thinking of him would make me smile, kind of the smile is from the bottom of the heart. Y

It's muttons' time. Muttons at midnight is wonderful okay! I'm listening to it almost every night. It would make me laugh my ass off. I love Muttons. But I want it back to the morning session. Hahas.

Well, it's raining now, such a depressing weather uh. Hmmm, but I love raining days. Sweet dreams you sexy people! (:

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
11:38 PM

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You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
10:16 PM

Maybe I will have the wings. Nobody knows. Now that I am weak. But I'm gonna be strong. I have no choice. Cos I have to face the world. Face everything on my own. Even though I will never be strong inside but I'm gonna pretend again. I see the both sides of this story. I feel scared. But no matter what, I'm just gonna smile. Somehow it's not now. Maybe till the day all my tears dry. And then I'm gonna stand up and face every storm. As for now, I have this wish. I wanna be pretty. Ta.

I miss him!

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
11:59 PM

Was thinking of writting a happy entry today, showing people that I'm fine, no worries for me. But sorry, I know I'm getting very irritating to you. But I'm not gonna pretend that I'm okay. Not anymore. Cos I'm not. Thought I was PMS-ing. But now I'm very sure that wasn't the right reason. Though I'm now going through this very natural menstrual cycle. And now... I just feel sad. I'm scared. The tear gland has just broken.

V called just now but what we did on the phone was just crying. I hate she's so far away from me. Was almost screaming to her "Why can't you just stay..." Cos I so don't want you to leave.

I fucking hate my timetable. Its like totally clashed. Everyday ends so late. Not even a break time is same. How am I gonna see him. I feel so horrible. I've lost all interest to go to school. Can't even take a glance at him. I'm really scared. But I know I can't give school a miss. I will just drag myself to school every morning.

Suddenly a lot of things are going through my mind. And now that I'm lost. I have no idea to any future plans ahead.

I know you might feel irritated by me. Sorry, I didn't wish to. But please... Please don't forsake me.

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
8:27 PM

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
5:57 PM

[mood : indescribable ]

I don't know what to start with. What I did for the past 20 minutes or more was just staring at this screen, listening to those what you call the emo songs. And yeh, the memories were playing, like a film without sound.

About 10plus she said goodnight and went to sleep. I want to talk to someone tonight but she refused to talk to me. She said this to me 'I don't my dream tonight fill with tears.' Whatever it is. Maybe I'm so gonna talk to myself. Think I'm not gonna sleep.

Nobody's at home now, they went to somewhere just now but I can't remember where's the place cause I didn't even pay attention to what they have said. So I might just talking to the walls.

What I'm afraid of is everybody leaves me, like one after another. But I think I'll probably take the first move before everybody does. I'll leave them first before they leave me. Well, I'm not here emo-ing. No. I don't. Totally. So don't misunderstand me alrights. You know I'm like Miss Little Sunshine or Miss Happy okay. *peace (:

Hmmm, I know I don't really treasure friendships. Cause to me, everything. Boyfriend comes first then follow by friends. That isn't wrong to me, till now and then. Nobody can ever change my point of view. Cause he's somebody that means the world, means everything to me. No one could ever compare with him. I know I don't pay much attention to the friends maybe sometimes I don't even care about them. Though no one's saying a word. Or maybe I don't. Just that I'm thinking way too much. But still, I'm sorry. That's wrong. &I'm gonna change.

Anyways, you can ignore this entry cause I also don't know what I have been writting.(: V's gonna leave in a few hours time. &I'm so gonna miss her. ):

But yah, nights people. (:
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I think what I want now is a tight hug.

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It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
'Cause you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
12:45 AM

[mood : ]

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
12:36 AM