If the heart is always searching, can you ever find a home? I've been looking for that someone, I can't make it on my own. Dreams can't take the place of loving you, there's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

How long will I be waiting, to be with you again? Gonna tell you that I love you, in the best way that I can. I can't take a day without you here, you're the light that makes my darkness disappear. &Every day, I start to realize, I can reach my tomorrow, I can hold my head high, and it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes, and tell me that you love me. Everything's alright, when you're right here by my side. When you look me in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven. I find my paradise, when you look me in the eyes.

Yeat your heart out
10:26 PM

Yeat your heart out
10:34 PM

Everything between 6 to 11pm was good. Randomly. Went for dinner with this group of people whom I call them my best friends in TP. Though dinner time was short but had lots of laughters. It has been long since I last went out with them. We talked quite lots of things. Had good laugh at our favourite cartoon. I enjoyed the time I spent with them like this. Cos rarely I could have the chance to be with them this way. It is not that I have no time to meet them up, in fact I'm seeing them everyday in school. But that also seems to be the only time.

And at the same time, I'm thinking of another group of my friends. Recently, a few came to me and told me things like 'Hey i'm quite disappointed in you'. I understand it was all because you all care for me, but I don't really feel good, cos I know I'm letting you guys down. Yes, maybe as what you said, I have a choice. But I don't wish... Well, I'm glad somebody would ring me up on new year day just to check if I'm alright. Really, I'm appreciate that my friends care for me. Especially at the time that you were feeling really down. I didn't know I would cry. But kind of touch, I couldn't control. And also, I'm thankful for those who understand my situation, without forcing me to do anything just simply showing me the support. How great could it be. 'If you're happy then just follow your heart follow your mind...' I know no matter what you people would be there for me. Though maybe this few, but are great enough.

Thanks for supporting my decision, thanks for never neglect me, and thanks for those random calls just to say that 'Hey, i miss you'. Thanks for always pick up my call no matter if it's in late night listen to me and all. I don't know if is the emo bug attacked me again, I know what are the thoughts that are racing through my mind now. But for whatI feel so true now is that maybe in the end I would lose everything. But just this few friends of mine would really pull me through. I know I will be falling apart if that's really happens. But I'm sure they will be there.

I know you people might never read this but still I want thank you. Thank you for taking me as your friend.

Yeat your heart out
11:18 PM

maybe i shouldn't ask you to delete her in your msn
i didn't even think about before i told you all that
so scared to see that you've got so mad and angry of that
maybe i'm too sick too tired to process anything through my mind
i didn't want to make you so pissed off
too much sorry that i've said so it means nothing to you now
i know no matter what i say it won't work anymore
but for what i'm sure of is that you're getting tired of me
almost everyday i'm letting you down
piss you off badly
your eyes won't lie, you're tired, tired of me
i'm glad, glad you let it show
and i, i don't know what to do now
cos seems, i become an irritating person
i don't want to do anything cos i don't wanna make you angry anymore
i'm getting so scared
so i don't want to move anymore
i'm waiting for you to take the next step
i don't know what will that be
but no matter what i'm just gonna accept it
cos i know this i owe you
but truly i'm really sorry for all the wrong that i've done
i'm sorry for disappointing you everyday.
i don't know why i make everything this way though all wasn't i wanted
sorry. really i'm sorry
but i haven't make up my mind
i don't know if i will really let you go if you wish to leave
that ain't easy for me at all
totally not
if i still have chance
i wish you would let me understand you more
i wish i would treate you better
cos you're the hardest thing to remove from my heart
if i still have chance
i will learn to love you right
i'd do everything to hold your hand tight
and only if i still have chace
i will find a way to you my heart
to show you're always there
cos you're and always will be
so i wish you would give me the chance
i don't want you to leave me

on a happier note, i'm learning to be stronger, so even that's really a storm coming my way, and blow me down but slowly i know i would get up. i don't know what's in store for me tomorrow but no matter how it gonna be i'll be strong, cos i understand there's always rainbow after every storm. maybe it will take a really long time, but someday i'll be fine. \/

Yeat your heart out
7:52 PM

Yeat your heart out
12:25 AM

Yeat your heart out
1:03 AM

Yeat your heart out
10:03 PM

Today was quite alright. Went to school to finish up my FNDB this morning. Okay. I was stupid enough to take the wrong bus. I took 9 to 201 then crossed the bridge, supposed to take 8 to school but when 9 came I just go up the bus and then I've realised I was on the wrong bus, the bus which bought me back home again. And so I had to go back to 201 to wait for the bloody bus 8 again. Wasted my time. Don't laugh at me. You can't blame me cos I'm sick.

Well, reached school about 9.30. I must say, I chose the correct lab today. I was just absolutely luky that I was in this lab with the genius. So that I could finish my project on time. That makes me feel good. A big thank you to Zax and Lee Wei. Especially Zax, I think I would be crying now if you weren't there to help me. Ha.

Back home about 1.30 then printed out everything. Rested a little bit then headed down to town and then bugis. I got a lot goodies for myself today. I love the dresses in Top. Way so nice okay. I wanna buy! Ahhh! But I need a member card. Whoever the shit that's using my card now I curse you! Curse you hard!

Anyways, dinner time and after was good but I'm lazy to talk about it. Then got home about 10 plus 11. I heard Jay Chou! Wooohooos. Ha. Anyways, today was a good day. But boyfriend didn't call me today not even a message which I feel quite sad. I hope he doesn't forget me. Cos seems I always the last one go into his busy mind. But it's okay. At least, I'm still in it. Contented.

i'm a liar. good day. thank you. (:

Yeat your heart out
11:59 PM

Yeat your heart out
9:53 PM

Yeat your heart out
8:37 PM

Yeat your heart out
12:17 AM

Yeat your heart out
12:52 AM

Lazy to update and seriously, nothing much to update about. And I'm way lazy to upload all the photos either. Projects and projects, i'm dying soon. Open house was alright.

Went to bestf house just now, took back my mask. bestf added one more layer for me but still, I'm thinking of buying another roll of plaster to add two more layers. I'm designing for my mask now, I needa decide a theme. Next week I'm goona be way so very busy. Everyday I have to do project, presentation and all the shitty stuff. I wanna go for movies and shoppings. I'm tired, really.

I'm glad, I've gained back a friendship recently. We've started to talk to each other again. It's a good start, I think sooner or later we will be back like before.

No good mood. Goodnight.

Yeat your heart out
12:36 AM

Yeat your heart out
11:58 PM

Yeat your heart out
1:11 AM

Yeat your heart out
2:48 AM

Yeat your heart out
12:35 AM

Yeat your heart out
1:52 AM

2008, I don't know how this year is going to be. Everything is just so unpredicatable. I've learnt not to give myself any high hopes and at the same time I know I have to learn to protect myself from all the hurts. 2007 wasn't an easy year for me. Too much of a heavy heart. I don't know if I will be stronger this year, I only could say I'm trying my best to be one. Simply, I'm like begging some people just don't come and destroy my happiness. Why would you come to steal my happiness while you've already found yours. You can't be this greedy. And to me, this year I'm really gonna keep myself low profile as in a way to reduce the hurt to the lowest level. And so please, stay away from what that's belongs to me. Don't try to take away of what is not yours.

2007, I've met quite a few new friends. Most came into my life for a short while then disappear. If you know yourself well that you don't need me in your life then don't come and tell me things like 'I can be your bestfriend' or 'I will always be there for you'. cause I think I have too much friends like only talk to me when you feel you need to do so. I think I don't need any empty promises. This year, I don't need people to give me much cares or attentions, I'd rather people ignore me, don't noice me. Becaue I'm just so afraid of misunderstandings and I'm afraid I might lose something that means a world to me.

& Please, don't pull out the sutures and let my heart heal right. To be very honest, I'm getting sick of the tears. And I've got no strength to fight anymore. I don't want to live in fears and worries everyday. Just let my 2008 be a peaceful one.

Anyways, I hope this year will be better.

Yeat your heart out
10:36 PM

If the heart is always searching, can you ever find a home? I've been looking for that someone, I can't make it on my own. Dreams can't take the place of loving you, there's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

How long will I be waiting, to be with you again? Gonna tell you that I love you, in the best way that I can. I can't take a day without you here, you're the light that makes my darkness disappear. &Every day, I start to realize, I can reach my tomorrow, I can hold my head high, and it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes, and tell me that you love me. Everything's alright, when you're right here by my side. When you look me in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven. I find my paradise, when you look me in the eyes.

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
10:26 PM

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
10:34 PM

Everything between 6 to 11pm was good. Randomly. Went for dinner with this group of people whom I call them my best friends in TP. Though dinner time was short but had lots of laughters. It has been long since I last went out with them. We talked quite lots of things. Had good laugh at our favourite cartoon. I enjoyed the time I spent with them like this. Cos rarely I could have the chance to be with them this way. It is not that I have no time to meet them up, in fact I'm seeing them everyday in school. But that also seems to be the only time.

And at the same time, I'm thinking of another group of my friends. Recently, a few came to me and told me things like 'Hey i'm quite disappointed in you'. I understand it was all because you all care for me, but I don't really feel good, cos I know I'm letting you guys down. Yes, maybe as what you said, I have a choice. But I don't wish... Well, I'm glad somebody would ring me up on new year day just to check if I'm alright. Really, I'm appreciate that my friends care for me. Especially at the time that you were feeling really down. I didn't know I would cry. But kind of touch, I couldn't control. And also, I'm thankful for those who understand my situation, without forcing me to do anything just simply showing me the support. How great could it be. 'If you're happy then just follow your heart follow your mind...' I know no matter what you people would be there for me. Though maybe this few, but are great enough.

Thanks for supporting my decision, thanks for never neglect me, and thanks for those random calls just to say that 'Hey, i miss you'. Thanks for always pick up my call no matter if it's in late night listen to me and all. I don't know if is the emo bug attacked me again, I know what are the thoughts that are racing through my mind now. But for whatI feel so true now is that maybe in the end I would lose everything. But just this few friends of mine would really pull me through. I know I will be falling apart if that's really happens. But I'm sure they will be there.

I know you people might never read this but still I want thank you. Thank you for taking me as your friend.

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
11:18 PM

maybe i shouldn't ask you to delete her in your msn
i didn't even think about before i told you all that
so scared to see that you've got so mad and angry of that
maybe i'm too sick too tired to process anything through my mind
i didn't want to make you so pissed off
too much sorry that i've said so it means nothing to you now
i know no matter what i say it won't work anymore
but for what i'm sure of is that you're getting tired of me
almost everyday i'm letting you down
piss you off badly
your eyes won't lie, you're tired, tired of me
i'm glad, glad you let it show
and i, i don't know what to do now
cos seems, i become an irritating person
i don't want to do anything cos i don't wanna make you angry anymore
i'm getting so scared
so i don't want to move anymore
i'm waiting for you to take the next step
i don't know what will that be
but no matter what i'm just gonna accept it
cos i know this i owe you
but truly i'm really sorry for all the wrong that i've done
i'm sorry for disappointing you everyday.
i don't know why i make everything this way though all wasn't i wanted
sorry. really i'm sorry
but i haven't make up my mind
i don't know if i will really let you go if you wish to leave
that ain't easy for me at all
totally not
if i still have chance
i wish you would let me understand you more
i wish i would treate you better
cos you're the hardest thing to remove from my heart
if i still have chance
i will learn to love you right
i'd do everything to hold your hand tight
and only if i still have chace
i will find a way to you my heart
to show you're always there
cos you're and always will be
so i wish you would give me the chance
i don't want you to leave me

on a happier note, i'm learning to be stronger, so even that's really a storm coming my way, and blow me down but slowly i know i would get up. i don't know what's in store for me tomorrow but no matter how it gonna be i'll be strong, cos i understand there's always rainbow after every storm. maybe it will take a really long time, but someday i'll be fine. \/

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
7:52 PM

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
12:25 AM

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
1:03 AM

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
10:03 PM

Today was quite alright. Went to school to finish up my FNDB this morning. Okay. I was stupid enough to take the wrong bus. I took 9 to 201 then crossed the bridge, supposed to take 8 to school but when 9 came I just go up the bus and then I've realised I was on the wrong bus, the bus which bought me back home again. And so I had to go back to 201 to wait for the bloody bus 8 again. Wasted my time. Don't laugh at me. You can't blame me cos I'm sick.

Well, reached school about 9.30. I must say, I chose the correct lab today. I was just absolutely luky that I was in this lab with the genius. So that I could finish my project on time. That makes me feel good. A big thank you to Zax and Lee Wei. Especially Zax, I think I would be crying now if you weren't there to help me. Ha.

Back home about 1.30 then printed out everything. Rested a little bit then headed down to town and then bugis. I got a lot goodies for myself today. I love the dresses in Top. Way so nice okay. I wanna buy! Ahhh! But I need a member card. Whoever the shit that's using my card now I curse you! Curse you hard!

Anyways, dinner time and after was good but I'm lazy to talk about it. Then got home about 10 plus 11. I heard Jay Chou! Wooohooos. Ha. Anyways, today was a good day. But boyfriend didn't call me today not even a message which I feel quite sad. I hope he doesn't forget me. Cos seems I always the last one go into his busy mind. But it's okay. At least, I'm still in it. Contented.

i'm a liar. good day. thank you. (:

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
11:59 PM

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
9:53 PM

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
8:37 PM

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
12:17 AM

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
12:52 AM

Lazy to update and seriously, nothing much to update about. And I'm way lazy to upload all the photos either. Projects and projects, i'm dying soon. Open house was alright.

Went to bestf house just now, took back my mask. bestf added one more layer for me but still, I'm thinking of buying another roll of plaster to add two more layers. I'm designing for my mask now, I needa decide a theme. Next week I'm goona be way so very busy. Everyday I have to do project, presentation and all the shitty stuff. I wanna go for movies and shoppings. I'm tired, really.

I'm glad, I've gained back a friendship recently. We've started to talk to each other again. It's a good start, I think sooner or later we will be back like before.

No good mood. Goodnight.

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
12:36 AM

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
11:58 PM

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
1:11 AM

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
2:48 AM

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
12:35 AM

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
1:52 AM

2008, I don't know how this year is going to be. Everything is just so unpredicatable. I've learnt not to give myself any high hopes and at the same time I know I have to learn to protect myself from all the hurts. 2007 wasn't an easy year for me. Too much of a heavy heart. I don't know if I will be stronger this year, I only could say I'm trying my best to be one. Simply, I'm like begging some people just don't come and destroy my happiness. Why would you come to steal my happiness while you've already found yours. You can't be this greedy. And to me, this year I'm really gonna keep myself low profile as in a way to reduce the hurt to the lowest level. And so please, stay away from what that's belongs to me. Don't try to take away of what is not yours.

2007, I've met quite a few new friends. Most came into my life for a short while then disappear. If you know yourself well that you don't need me in your life then don't come and tell me things like 'I can be your bestfriend' or 'I will always be there for you'. cause I think I have too much friends like only talk to me when you feel you need to do so. I think I don't need any empty promises. This year, I don't need people to give me much cares or attentions, I'd rather people ignore me, don't noice me. Becaue I'm just so afraid of misunderstandings and I'm afraid I might lose something that means a world to me.

& Please, don't pull out the sutures and let my heart heal right. To be very honest, I'm getting sick of the tears. And I've got no strength to fight anymore. I don't want to live in fears and worries everyday. Just let my 2008 be a peaceful one.

Anyways, I hope this year will be better.

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
10:36 PM