I had my time at home the entire day. Have been constantly thinking of this boy, which I call him my love. Memories flashed back ever since the day I first met him. I'm really glad that I opened my heart and let him in. Was looking through the cards and other stuff that he gave me, they would really brought a BIG smile on my face, truly from the bottom of my heart. And I've got a champagne rose yesterday, it spells love.

I didn't get to see him today, and now he's asleep. I think I'm missing him kinda badly this time, cause my heart's having an urge to see him right now. It wasn't really long since the day he stayed in my heart but on the other side of view, it seems a really long period of time.

I'd still think of the day when he first hugged me. The day whe he gave me the first love letter of my life. And the night that we spent together waiting for the sunrise. It seems like, everything, he'd remember everything that I've said, he'd remember them by heart. And make everything come true just for me. He picked me up during my weakest moment, and stayed with me till my life's back to normal.

He'd be the first one who make me feel that I am treasured. I still can remember the kind of happiness he has given me when I received his first email by surprise. Everytime, he'd make me wanna fly. All along, he never neglect me, till today, he's still trying his best to reach out for me whenever he can. But it seems, as time passed by, I've started to be selfish and neglected that he does have feelings too. All the times I took for granted, I'd only think of myself and I'm letting the very bad side of me showing more and more obviously without realising. I've forgotten he ain't the real superman though he's trying his best to be the one for me, but he's just a normal human being. And till I tasted the tears and I saw the cracks in him and it seemed that I can't get near to him, I've realized that the amount of hurt and stressness that I've given him are so much more than what I could imagine.

You wouldn't understand, but if it's you, I think you'd give up long ago. But he didn't, he chose to hold on with the love and faith. And now, I start to hate myself when he's trying so hard to keep our love alive, but I'd think of giving up. Come to think of those words that came out from my mouth, they would be so much hurtful. I really hate myself for always giving up so easily. And though those words could hurt him so bad but still, he didn't say a word to give up. And me, I just don't know the meaning of appreciation and the meaning of love.

Tears are dropping out from my eyes now, I can't help it. This time, they're for good. The tears of happiness, cause I'm thankful that he's holding on to this love and I'm thankful that he didn't allow me to give up on this precious love. I'd cry so badly thinking he's leaving. And I'd laugh at myself if I let it go. Simply, I would be on such a lost if I really let him go. Cause you wouldn't know, he's the kind of boy that you have been searching for all along, he's the kind of boy that seems only would exist in fairytales, he's the kind of boy that would give you his very best if you ask for, he's the kind of boy that your mama wish your boyfriend to be.

Patient, sacrifice, acceptance, kind, an act of endless forgiveness, and the stretches of heart and makes it big inside. That's what he has given me and this is what I call it love. It's time for me to learn not to only receive but to give in at the same time. I'm really grateful for the time he would always forgive me when I was really horrible.

My love, though it hasn't been a really long period, but we have been through so much together, with tears and laughter. With two willing hearts we've made it possible, we make it till today. Life is full of ups and down. Maybe this phase ain't that smooth for us, but slowly, we will get it through, and with faith, we will make everything's right, we will make it far. Believe me this time, I will mend the cracks in you, I will make you perfect again. And look at us now, we can be happy together. You've shown me what is to love and the greatest faith, and so I wouldn't be that silly to think of letting go of you. I'm so gonna hold on to you tightly, and never think of those stuff that I shouldn't think of. You and me, you're gonna really trust me this time, I will give you that unconditional love that you used to feel. And so, let's erase all the unhappiness and mistakes from our hearts and minds and start afresh. We're getting better and better each day. It makes me feel so good to be in love with you, cause I know I love you and you know I love you and everyone else knows that I love you so much! (:

Oh. I'm so gonna have swollen eyes tomorrow. But it's okay, I love the tears tonight, taste sweet. Ha. It's getting really late, and so I'm going to bed and I'm so gonna text you before I fall asleep. And I pray you wouldn't feel sick anymore when you wake up. And so I wanna end this entry with this picture. It's not really pretty random, but I love it, cause, to the left to the left, it's love! (: Y

I had my time at home the entire day. Have been constantly thinking of this boy, which I call him my love. Memories flashed back ever since the day I first met him. I'm really glad that I opened my heart and let him in. Was looking through the cards and other stuff that he gave me, they would really brought a BIG smile on my face, truly from the bottom of my heart. And I've got a champagne rose yesterday, it spells love.

I didn't get to see him today, and now he's asleep. I think I'm missing him kinda badly this time, cause my heart's having an urge to see him right now. It wasn't really long since the day he stayed in my heart but on the other side of view, it seems a really long period of time.

I'd still think of the day when he first hugged me. The day whe he gave me the first love letter of my life. And the night that we spent together waiting for the sunrise. It seems like, everything, he'd remember everything that I've said, he'd remember them by heart. And make everything come true just for me. He picked me up during my weakest moment, and stayed with me till my life's back to normal.

He'd be the first one who make me feel that I am treasured. I still can remember the kind of happiness he has given me when I received his first email by surprise. Everytime, he'd make me wanna fly. All along, he never neglect me, till today, he's still trying his best to reach out for me whenever he can. But it seems, as time passed by, I've started to be selfish and neglected that he does have feelings too. All the times I took for granted, I'd only think of myself and I'm letting the very bad side of me showing more and more obviously without realising. I've forgotten he ain't the real superman though he's trying his best to be the one for me, but he's just a normal human being. And till I tasted the tears and I saw the cracks in him and it seemed that I can't get near to him, I've realized that the amount of hurt and stressness that I've given him are so much more than what I could imagine.

You wouldn't understand, but if it's you, I think you'd give up long ago. But he didn't, he chose to hold on with the love and faith. And now, I start to hate myself when he's trying so hard to keep our love alive, but I'd think of giving up. Come to think of those words that came out from my mouth, they would be so much hurtful. I really hate myself for always giving up so easily. And though those words could hurt him so bad but still, he didn't say a word to give up. And me, I just don't know the meaning of appreciation and the meaning of love.

Tears are dropping out from my eyes now, I can't help it. This time, they're for good. The tears of happiness, cause I'm thankful that he's holding on to this love and I'm thankful that he didn't allow me to give up on this precious love. I'd cry so badly thinking he's leaving. And I'd laugh at myself if I let it go. Simply, I would be on such a lost if I really let him go. Cause you wouldn't know, he's the kind of boy that you have been searching for all along, he's the kind of boy that seems only would exist in fairytales, he's the kind of boy that would give you his very best if you ask for, he's the kind of boy that your mama wish your boyfriend to be.

Patient, sacrifice, acceptance, kind, an act of endless forgiveness, and the stretches of heart and makes it big inside. That's what he has given me and this is what I call it love. It's time for me to learn not to only receive but to give in at the same time. I'm really grateful for the time he would always forgive me when I was really horrible.

My love, though it hasn't been a really long period, but we have been through so much together, with tears and laughter. With two willing hearts we've made it possible, we make it till today. Life is full of ups and down. Maybe this phase ain't that smooth for us, but slowly, we will get it through, and with faith, we will make everything's right, we will make it far. Believe me this time, I will mend the cracks in you, I will make you perfect again. And look at us now, we can be happy together. You've shown me what is to love and the greatest faith, and so I wouldn't be that silly to think of letting go of you. I'm so gonna hold on to you tightly, and never think of those stuff that I shouldn't think of. You and me, you're gonna really trust me this time, I will give you that unconditional love that you used to feel. And so, let's erase all the unhappiness and mistakes from our hearts and minds and start afresh. We're getting better and better each day. It makes me feel so good to be in love with you, cause I know I love you and you know I love you and everyone else knows that I love you so much! (:

Oh. I'm so gonna have swollen eyes tomorrow. But it's okay, I love the tears tonight, taste sweet. Ha. It's getting really late, and so I'm going to bed and I'm so gonna text you before I fall asleep. And I pray you wouldn't feel sick anymore when you wake up. And so I wanna end this entry with this picture. It's not really pretty random, but I love it, cause, to the left to the left, it's love! (: Y