S-taccato has been with me for 9 months time. While looking back those memories, they're playing in my mind like a film without sound. Some with joy some with tears. Some time ago, I've left s-taccato for a few times, I said I left this place but there was always something to hold me back. Too good to delete it. I've got no idea of exactly who are the people reading this blog daily. Cause I know all along I was just writting for my special someone, my love. Cause he's the only person who matters my daily life, my everything. And also the very few precious friends that I've met in life. I know there are people who come here daily. There are people who talking about s-taccato. You know it made you feel good when people took your entry to post in their blog and saying it was nice written. &while you were in Business School canteen eating chicken chop and some unknown random people came to you and said 'Hey, I read your blog and it's so sweet. Nice. Though I don't even know you' It has given me more than the memories. All the time, no matter I wrote for him or else. I wrote for people to read. Reads my emotions and all. And now I think I should take the advise to write something just for my own.

It's not that I'm gonna close down this blog, this isn't the last entry. And it's not that I will be stop blogging. I won't. Cause blogging is actually the thing which I spent the most time each day. It has already became a habit. I'm blogger. And it's good to be one. It's just that, this time, I will be at elsewhere to continue my story. And for this time, I will be the blogger and the only reader. I will still be back here. Maybe very often, maybe seldom, but I will be back. Just that I'm not too sure about the stuffs to be blog about yet. You people, try to find out the real meaning of the word 'staccato' then I believe somehow you would understand why I'm doing this.

Today was scary, today was way too emotional, today was just dramatic. Today, tears were like tap water for 5 hours cause the tear gland has broken. I thought the most important person in my life would never turn back to me. I was almost scream my lungs out while crying to Melinda lovergirl. Luckily I've got her to be with me. I know she would always be there. And also Qian, thanks for hearing me crying and all. Lesson learned this time, I've paid for it. No kidding. I was falling apart and I've totally broke. If he really leaves me, then it just the end of the world to me. Thank to God that he turned. I see it very clear, I just can't. I can't live without YOU. I don't even wanna try. It's just impossible for me to let you go. Cause you've already the part of my life.

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I know I'm just nobody, ugly and fat, fully of jealousy and enmity. That's what you people think of me maybe. I'm just way too evil, way too selfish. I'm the kind of girl you will never wish your daughter to be. I'm so not angel kind hearted. Call me a bitch if you want to. Way better than me, yes other girls in this world are way better than me, I will never think how good other people are like the way they do. I treat everybody like enemies. I don't deserve to be good. I know I don't deserve to have all the beautiful things. But for such a bad girl, there are people who did neglect her all the way. And even like today, they won't ask what has happened cause they knew you don't wish to say. They will never force you. They allow you to cry but they would always be there. I'm grateful for it. Truly! Melinda and Sanjeev. They are the ones who showed me they truly cared, Melindada I love you too! And Sanjeev! I will cheer up okay. I know my best friends can **** ** anyone! Cause Melinda and Sanjeev has the power! :D And also, DACY, thank you! (:

S-taccato is to be continued. Loves!

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Dearest Kdarling, I want you to know this, nothing will change the fact that I will always love you, cause your name is tattooed on my heart. &though I'm learning but I do trust you. I love you!

Yeat your heart out
11:12 PM

S-taccato has been with me for 9 months time. While looking back those memories, they're playing in my mind like a film without sound. Some with joy some with tears. Some time ago, I've left s-taccato for a few times, I said I left this place but there was always something to hold me back. Too good to delete it. I've got no idea of exactly who are the people reading this blog daily. Cause I know all along I was just writting for my special someone, my love. Cause he's the only person who matters my daily life, my everything. And also the very few precious friends that I've met in life. I know there are people who come here daily. There are people who talking about s-taccato. You know it made you feel good when people took your entry to post in their blog and saying it was nice written. &while you were in Business School canteen eating chicken chop and some unknown random people came to you and said 'Hey, I read your blog and it's so sweet. Nice. Though I don't even know you' It has given me more than the memories. All the time, no matter I wrote for him or else. I wrote for people to read. Reads my emotions and all. And now I think I should take the advise to write something just for my own.

It's not that I'm gonna close down this blog, this isn't the last entry. And it's not that I will be stop blogging. I won't. Cause blogging is actually the thing which I spent the most time each day. It has already became a habit. I'm blogger. And it's good to be one. It's just that, this time, I will be at elsewhere to continue my story. And for this time, I will be the blogger and the only reader. I will still be back here. Maybe very often, maybe seldom, but I will be back. Just that I'm not too sure about the stuffs to be blog about yet. You people, try to find out the real meaning of the word 'staccato' then I believe somehow you would understand why I'm doing this.

Today was scary, today was way too emotional, today was just dramatic. Today, tears were like tap water for 5 hours cause the tear gland has broken. I thought the most important person in my life would never turn back to me. I was almost scream my lungs out while crying to Melinda lovergirl. Luckily I've got her to be with me. I know she would always be there. And also Qian, thanks for hearing me crying and all. Lesson learned this time, I've paid for it. No kidding. I was falling apart and I've totally broke. If he really leaves me, then it just the end of the world to me. Thank to God that he turned. I see it very clear, I just can't. I can't live without YOU. I don't even wanna try. It's just impossible for me to let you go. Cause you've already the part of my life.

-

I know I'm just nobody, ugly and fat, fully of jealousy and enmity. That's what you people think of me maybe. I'm just way too evil, way too selfish. I'm the kind of girl you will never wish your daughter to be. I'm so not angel kind hearted. Call me a bitch if you want to. Way better than me, yes other girls in this world are way better than me, I will never think how good other people are like the way they do. I treat everybody like enemies. I don't deserve to be good. I know I don't deserve to have all the beautiful things. But for such a bad girl, there are people who did neglect her all the way. And even like today, they won't ask what has happened cause they knew you don't wish to say. They will never force you. They allow you to cry but they would always be there. I'm grateful for it. Truly! Melinda and Sanjeev. They are the ones who showed me they truly cared, Melindada I love you too! And Sanjeev! I will cheer up okay. I know my best friends can **** ** anyone! Cause Melinda and Sanjeev has the power! :D And also, DACY, thank you! (:

S-taccato is to be continued. Loves!

-
Dearest Kdarling, I want you to know this, nothing will change the fact that I will always love you, cause your name is tattooed on my heart. &though I'm learning but I do trust you. I love you!

Yand i'll whisper to you my love
11:12 PM