I'm glued this time, just in case I might crack out. Trying very best to pretend and hold myself together, but the heart would still get this pang and ache. I hate to face the reality when it's way too clear to me to know that it's over. Said that time will heal, I don't really believe it, cause it seems more than 48 hours a day and how I wish time would pass faster and how I wish the pill would make me sleep a little longer. Honestly, it's hard to erase certain things from the heart and mind. It's like everything you do you'd think of this face. And when it appears in front of you, straight away, the tears well up in the eyes, you tried the best to hold and after you walked away they just roll down the cheeks. I didn't know I would fall so deely this time but so not beautifully. Maybe I still stuck at when both agreed as lovers. But when flames to dust, this is how it have to be, better off as friends. We are what we don't see but all good things have to come to an end, though it's a shame that it had to be this way. Silent screaming inside, I'd wish it's still holding on. But I understand that something will never be replaced, so I'm not going to turn around anything, cause I know deep down that I don't have the power to hold something that doesn't belong to me. Rivers of emotions, I'm holding the head up high and putting up a fake smile, I'd tell myself to be strong to pick up the pieces. But behind the scene I don't deny that I'm still holding on, but it's not to a hope. Cause I could see clear it's hopeless. Just quietly, I'm holding on to my heart to this one way love. Cause you know I no good. And with all the things left unsaid, I'm glad knowing, you're doing good.
Yeat your heart out
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